Unsticking Susie<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I found my old knitting project and I’m revisiting the ‘how to’ of this intricate knitting design. The pattern is called feather and fan and its just beautiful, and also complicated! I have created half of the scarf , and I have another half to go. And here’s the dilemma, I have another quarter completed and another quarter to go. The pattern sits there on the needles and beckons me, and yet I am afraid to begin again, as I’m sure I will mess it up! It is fun and exciting to feel this desire to begin again… and yet also there is a ‘tightrope’ moment coming, when I begin the first stitch. It is fun to feel my enthusiasm stepping forward again, and yet the nerves are here also as I don’t even know the stitch pattern and will have to teach myself all over again. I have spent many months leading up to this moment and now I am beginning to feel like I can start over. It is a process that I’m finding helpful to physically and emotionally go through with this project. It is helping me to feel <\/em>my way through it, rather than just utilising my logic.<\/em> Logic often gets in my way and stops me in my tracks. When I ‘feel’ into something and let that be my guide, then the confidence grows and I feel more capable and competent to begin. And then the ‘beginning’ becomes a possibility and I tentatively more forward.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I believe this is a really good ‘recipe’ for living different areas of my life this year. I had felt ‘stuck’ for so long and the process of reigniting my passion with knitting is helping the process of ‘unsticking’ Susie. I rejoice in that statement. I am in the throes of unsticking the stuckness of me. Woo hoo! And going through the process of reuniting with my lovely knitting project, is totally transforming me from the outside, inwards. <\/p>\n\n\n\n For me, the creation of this scarf is so much more than just a scarf. It symbolises the process I have been through to get me to this point. I had the slightly sticky years, the stuck years, and now the resolution. I had just re-ignited my passion for knitting, then the lockdowns happened, and now I am picking it all up again. And yes it is a tentative process and I am scared of messing up, that is true. That’s true for most areas of my life. And yet I am willing to give it a go. And I’ve already asked fellow knitters for help and been gratified that they’ve taken the time to help me a little further along. And so I will practice the pattern again, remember the stitches and go forth and attempt that which I started four years ago. With a caveat that having fun in the process is what really matters! I forget that so often!<\/p>\n\n\n\n This ‘recipe’ demonstrates that I can pick up things and move on. I can deal with endings of things like my knitting teacher retiring, and then I can find another way to make things work for me. And the support, may have changed, and I have changed too. And yet I’m still on the journey. And yes I’m talking about knitting here, and yet I can identify my life and ‘me’ in this. Obstacles happen, stuckness happens, and yet the stuckness did not last forever. And when I feel into something I want to create, then anything is possible, including a lace scarf. I am living that possibility now. Long live knitting, thank you for coming back into my life. You’ve demonstrated that I can move on.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Unsticking Susie I found my old knitting project and I’m revisiting the ‘how to’ of this intricate knitting design. The pattern is called feather and fan and its just beautiful, and also complicated! I have created half of the scarf , and I have another half to go. 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